Weekends are boring I seriously gotta admit. This just sucks. Movies wun be enough to satisfy me. Its not like the past where watching a few downloaded movies at home would help to kill time. Its just something is lacking. I just dun feel right doing so. Not the illegal issue but something else. I seriously dunno. Something is missing bah.

These 2 days been thinking a lot. A lot had dawned on me. Those good old days. Can I relive them? I miss so many things seriously. I know I mentioned it in my previous posts and stuff. But I seriously miss the old life I had and I know life would never be the same again. If only things were as simple as it had used to be. I wun be struggling to find answers. It gotten complicated as time grows u know? And I am giving u up alr. So many things I am gonna give up. No doubt I suck at this. But I am gona be strong and live the life it is as of now and face reality and facts like u will never be with me, u can never be mine. Facts like I would be a very more or less loner and stuff like that. I’m trying to change u know? Or rather. Even changes wun affect the way things are as of now. Its hard. I wanna run away from u. I dun wan to see u. u know? So wad if I seems to have a lot of friends and buddies? I still feel empty. Ass. I miss my ice cream boss, everyone there. Things ain;t the same alr. Sighs. If only things could remain the way they were used to be. But we humans know that things are forever changing and I have yet to change accordingly. Sighs.

Nonetheless, I am trying very hard to get a job. Agent called me down this tues for interview again. So, ya. Gona hope can find a stable weekend job. Hopefully, one with high pay and flexible hours. I am so dread of gg interview. Sure hair cannot make it or stuffs like that. And I dun wan to do flyers alr. Sick of it. I know its irony that I keep complaining I wan the old life I lived. But definitely not flyers. They kill me please. Driving lessons are another week. So bloody long. Haha. It seems I am gona forget about how to bloody start a car alr. Win liao. I dunno la. Too long nv touch car alr. At any rate, just hope the agent that side gt good news lo. At least gt more income is a good thing. Save up for the raining weather. Haha

Its been like 5 days since I last smoked. This time, I hope I can kick it away. My stamina would be the second thing to take care of alr. Sian. I dun tink I gt a lot of stamina left. Back to square one. Haha just wish me luck in the interview and quitting of smoking bah.