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Sunday, April 29, 2007

this week is rather spent in a unhappy manner, in a way or another. a lot of things happened like how much i wanna go drinking but can't, how some classmates behaviour turn me off. how someone in class can be so annoying and on my nerves, how i am easily pissed by that someone. it seems i am losing my sanity, my temper and all. i'm pissed like hell. not by the drinking matter. by him. okie. let me make it clear. u r getting on my nerve. stop asking me questions like no tomorrow. i am alr suay enough to be in the same IS with u this time round. fucking japanese. fuck u. i dun fucking take steriod. i dun like u to be saying me and stuff like that. i hate u cans? fuck it all. and the most important shit. i dun fucking need someone to lecture me on why i should not smoke and all. other lecture me fine. u lecture me? go to hell please. it is not as if u know a lot about wad i am going thru and wad i was thinking. its not like i can confide in u and stuff. i have enough of you alr. go drinking u might say i nv ask u along. fuck it. u dun even drink. wad's with gg to pubs and ordering fruit punch and then claiming that its darn bloody expensive. wad's with ur patience? ordering food and expecting it to come immediately. pls la. have some common sense cans? liew. or is it u dun even have it? i just had enough, asking me tutorials qns like no tmr, bugging me like no tmr. i am nt jap pro. i am nt a nerd. i am nt like peiqi. i dunno a lot of things can? to hell with ur bloody religion. (no offence to those same religion as his). to the hell with u. fuck. i know. drinking is bad enough. smoking is bad too. i dun need someone to tell me hw my stamina dropped. i know it myself cans? kan ni na. make me more pissed. its not like i dun haf the common sense to even know that my own stamina dropped. and its at a frightening rate. i'm tired from just 20 mins of basketball or so. so wad? to the hell with u. i am not fit. i am a smoker. i am a drinker. so? does it let u have the right to comment or rather lecture on wad i am doing and stuff like dat? u can't even handle your own life well. let alone handling others. and to add misery, i'm doing a project with u. now how does dat sound? screw everything.

thursday played bball. and stuffs happened. i had to smoke. i can't carry on playing. everything was different after a full cigg. i'm addicted. or rather, i depend on it for energy and stuff. this is bad i know. others can lecture me. but i wun wan u to come around and lecture me okie? i had enuff of this particular guy. friday nth much happened. drinking session cancelled. sians cans? then sat went shopping with mom and bought berms. and some clothes. and went drinking with her. song boh? i went to drink with my mom at hooters. a nice place at clark quay with hot pants and butts waitress. nonetheless, drank little. but i still puked. fuck. it seems i can;t drink very much from now on either. my eyes were red. i puked till my stomach/lungs burnt. ass. this is the worse puking i had. and i only puked once. thank god. and my mom dun know about it. or else i will be so dead. a lot of things happened and i am stressed from it all. i need some more smoking and i know its bad. my buddies can persuade me i dun mind. but here i go once and for all. matt, stop lecturing me alr. or rather save your breath, i wun listen to u. i hate ur religion and stuffs related to it. no offence. i'm saying ur name coz i know u wun visit my blog and stuff. matt. i had enough. i am not a nerd and stuff. i know i always been the one telling others. gt other ways rather than this and this or stuff like dat. i just like the smoking feeling and stuff. i dun need u to remind me of my misery and stuff. get a life and stop bugging abt wad i am doing and related stuff. okie? i am alr quite pissed with u. dat's all for now.

9:06 PM