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Saturday, March 10, 2007

basically dudes, i'm rather stressed and vexed by the investment shit. swedenfund is kinda unstable and my mom wans to play some stocks which seem to be like safer but then i heard tales of stocks and stuff.. i dun really know which one i should be in or rather which one i should invest and play to earn money.. its like sibei vexing lo.. i need to make a choice and i dunno which to choose from or should i just give up on playing this kind of things as i always is the sway one.. i dunno lei. at a loss seriously. i can get the money to invest. but the returns and the reliability will be a problem.. if only someone close to me is here to advise me and stuff.. man... so many things running thru my mind.. then as usual la. my mom kbkp abt the swendenfund shit.. then keep saying wad i did in the past is nt good.. machiam scolding me and putting the blame on me like dat.. eh hello i also human lei.. i am your son lei.. u tink wad? big one short tempered. u ask him stuffs nia he angry.. then u angry then can push to me la. then wad? my temper v good arh? u tink i perfect arh? if i perfect i long ago in heaven become god liao.. still on earth cum lan arh? everything u also try to involve me and then forget abt it.. then after some time its my fault or rather u 'just saying' only.. that this and that happened. we would have more money to earn and related stuff like dat.. i mean come on la.. wad's ur problem.. u tink i dun haf my problems to see to? u tink i dun have stress from sch work and friends? u tink i lead a very stress free life arh? u tink i gt the time to even bother abt ur stuffs? u live my clock time is 100 hours? u tink i am superman arh? u tink i can do a lot of things arh? u tink i can manage things well arh? eh come on la... the english say goes, like father like son. he alr CMI when i was 2.. wad makes u tink i will do better? my old saying goes.. money can be earned back. and dun at there kbkp say u invest lo.. burn ur fingers then u know.. wah lan eh.. its machiam buying 4D like dat.. u buy lo.. cfm wun open one la.. now shit happens, i wonder hw are we gona communicate abt things alr.. and i so scared u touch my laptop.. u wun know how to operate it. and getting the big one to touch my precious will be worse.. so i am supposed to be clever at the right times and be quiet at the right time too eh? i find it difficult to handle such a thing.. u can;t do it for sure i know.. human wun like others to pick on their mistakes but they like to pick on others.. how irony.. and when i do, u see all the black faces coming to me.. and when i dun, i still see black faces sometimes.. maybe its due to the reason why i tried to explained myself.. but u would have it ur way, ur say, ur right, ur reason.. wad else is left for me to fall back on? are u even giving me a chance to explain myself clearly and nt taking a biased side account? are u still gona to be so stubborn? i dun see why i can;t be stubborn.. sometimes u have to place urself in the other person de shoes.. i know its hard.. i find it hard too.. coz when shit happens, anger usually have the better of u and then. u regret wad u said and all.. but sometimes it seems like there is no hope at all.. in everyone.. be it buddies family or wad so ever.. i am sick of this alr.. i am sick of trying to reconcile with u everytime after we had a disagreement, tired of getting into disagrement after we reconciled, tired of having to be blamed for everything, tired of u.. i am already a grown up.. can i have at least the respect that i make my own decision myself? its not like i am playing with all ur savings.. i am using my own bloody money.. get the point? arhhh.. DEEP SHIT described it all... VEXED like no one business..

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