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Sunday, March 04, 2007

yo peeps, its me back again... i told some of them to remove my links already. soon this will become a ranting spot, a pplace for me to recall, to remember stuffs, be it happy or sad. fri just went zouk with esther, jeraldine and saufi. was fun and stuff.. man.. i wan more parties, chiong-ing cans? i seriously wan to enjoy the life of an adult even though i know i cannot drink so much and stuff like dat coz of the bloody health problem i am having.. but still, we die someday tio boh? haha.. if wanna die, at least die happily but trying out things u know u can;t try and stuff.. so i did alr.. drinking, smoking, dancing like no tomorrow. party party party. chiong chiong chiong.. hahaha

and ya its darn long since i last blogged.. so this will be a long post.. haha. a lot of things happened during this sem.. i mean.. A LOT. christmas eve celebration, new year celebration, my birthday celebration, making of new friends, getting closer with some people in school, getting closer with outside friends, getting more tiko, getting more alcoholic, living in a unhealthy manner, having random crushes on people i should not crush on, driving lessons, working and working, playing investments, learnt to smoke, learnt what kind of shirts i seek, learnt that sometimes things will not go your way but there is always a way out, learnt how to perform mircale by studying a few hours for exams, learnt that love is not everything in this world, learnt that no one can really be trusted, learnt that no matter hw much i do my brother will still be the number 1 in my mom's eye, learnt that sometimes doing so much for a person is somehow not worth it, learnt that the older u get, the lesser friends u will have to trust, learnt that the older u get, its easier to get tired, learnt that ur appearance wasn't pretty much pleasant, learnt that loving u was one big mistake.

sure, i learnt a lot of things, thinking have started to change, handling of problems wun be the same way as it was in the past. for some people, ur appearance or rather ur actions, the way u conduct urself, the way u protray out to people is irritating, but then still i have to face u for some time b4 we graduate.. do u understand wad i am going through? i'm ignoring, playing a deaf ear for all the things u say from now on.. all will be nothing but a facade.. friends is not wad i need, aquantainces will do fine.. for wad is friends when friends isn't friends, buddies ain't buddies. if that's the way things are being done and said, i just have to play a deaf ear.. let u get the credit and all.. i am sick of u alr.. condemn me poor again and i make u bleed.. i am a guy myself, i know wad u all are thinking too eh.. please la.. dun act as if you two are nice guys and stuff.. afterall, dat is wad u two want wad.. so ya.. i know it all... for now, i'm enjoying life with my outside bros, and i doubt u will understand wad i am conveying to u. so forget it and get out of my life.

till then.. back off..

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