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Saturday, March 24, 2007

wah lan eh.. today at work saw another aqua.. fucking hell la. why last time and now taka so different one? last time taka i always pick up 10 bucks on sats. now lei.. every week see one aqua.. KNN.. ccb la.. where gt this kind of thing happen one.. why why why? tell me why.. i also sian of this shit alr la.. bored.

lady boss came down today and went off la.. kinda good also.. haha.. dread the sight of her and then today i was like keep gg to the toilet now and then.. coz bladder problem.. then sians.. and ya.. getting the philippines cigg for my buddy as bday present. and ya i am quitting smoking yet i am still smoking profusely. today had 3.. highest yet bah. haha.. also stressed.. bored.. mom kbkp me abt the desktop, and all. just stressed la. its not like i am nt gg to help u do the desktop shit.. afterall its done using my own money and u wun know a single shit abt desktop and computers, do u know i feared that if i left things to u, chances are very high that i must need to change a new system. though i am i might be making things big la, but u know one la. i just dun trust u with my newly desktop, and now i am doing everything alr. gotten a v good buddy of mine to help me get rom, getting spare win xd installation disc in case shit happens, i'm all set out for the desktop, its not like i dun wan it to be done asap, its time constraints and all, i have a budget mind u, its not like i am printing cash or so. i overspent, as usual and u and him will defiantely sing in one tune, u tink u gt a lot of money arh, money is nt spent in this way one.. come to think about it, i am making plans for my future mind u. in case i might need my desktop in the future for work purposes and all and stuff like dat. that is why i am investing in this amount for the desktop, just to ensure that when time comes, it is still usable. but from past experiences, i dun haf to explain so much, u wun understand it anyways do u? after all these yrs, i still can't find a way to instill logic into your stubborn brain. haha. pardon me eh.

and then i realised earlier on, i am only left with 3.. am keeping it for parties. no more of it alr. except parties or chiong sessions only then will i bring it out.. and i know it will be hard from this step onwards. may god bless me and hope i can cut down or quit seriously.

i am at crossroads now.. one of my bud knows some of it.. another know some of it.. who and when can be my solution once and for all? suicide? too simple.. i dunno.. haha.. shall see how things go la. kinda sian these few days.

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