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Tuesday, June 20, 2006

back to selling ice cream for the last week.. he is leaving le and i went 420 lei.. pamela not in.. or is it the house i nv go see.. i dunno.. but i hear the voice i know.. is cfm nt pamela. but then.. ya i dunno la.. then.. sibei dots lo. i saw a pink shirt which somehow resemble the one i saw dat day when i saw her at the bus stop.. then the house darn vacant lei. saddening piece of shit.. how shitty can my life get?? sians.. PAMELA.. hai.,.
i am just so bloody afraid.. of losing u la.. imagine u are taken.. last year.. why nv we treasure the times we see each other. why?? this year.. wad the hell happened again.. was supposed to work out de.. then the bloody helper.. i know maybe u feel i can't live up to wad i promise., but dat time was really a sibei jia lat case... seriously... hai.. if only time could go back and stuff.. i just wan to tell u i like u too... and i wanna ask u the qns. if u wanna be my girlfriend.. coz its ur face i am dreaming every night.. tinking of b4 i sleep every night.. sians. u know how it feels?? i doubt u dun and u dun even know of this blog.. but i hope u will know soon.. coz i really misses u a lot... yup... though there are no happy times for me to recall abck since we were not even together before.. but i remebered the first time u commented on me.. staring at me straight.. and stuff.. i remember the time u asked for my chinese name.. the time u called me yoghurt.. then.. u are like gone.. forever... and i just wanna see u to sch everyday.. see u when i come home after school everyday.. i will go back home so early.. coz i just wanna see u and stuff.. i wanna dote and u and all.. so many things.. i dun even know if i gt the chance to.. i just hope i cann know u better and be with u b4 anything happens... no one knows wad is happening now... the position my mom is in and stuff.. they just can;t be understanding.. seriously i am sick and tired le.. of everything.... but i hope thru u i can have a new life.. a new goal and stuff.. darn heart aching when such things happen. sians.. u nv know do u??

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