Tuesday, January 03, 2006
3rd jan le peeps.. seeing her go to jjc.. kind aheart breaking.. dunno for wad reason la.. but wad i ccan say is.. i regretted.. nt studying hard.. i am scared of results taking.. scred of a lot of things.. i just pray hard.. aunite aileen's words kinda struck me hard inside my heart.. i guess she was right.. but all i wanted to do is to show my mom i;m grown up.. i;m close to 17 already.. just hope she can like give me more freedom and stuff.. i guess she already gave in to me already.. yup.. 31 to 1.. i thon-ed outside.. i guess she knew wad time i was back.... 8 plus in the morning.. and she nv said anyting.... maybe she already allowed it.. or maybe she decided to gave in.. i dun really know.. went to see my forth uncle today.. another one that had cancer.. kinda saddening to see him suffering.. i;'m supposed to recall the past.. about my dad de.. but i never.. i was like deprived of feelings... all my relatives tahan tears until they went out then eyes red red.. even the cold blooded bro of mine haf red eyes.. piangz.. i guess he recalled hw my dad suffered.. i dun recall a single thing.. sigh.. but seeing my forth uncle's present state send shivers down my spine.... totally freaks me out.. hai.. but why? i dunno... hmm.. well.. here's a add on to my resolution..
i'm never gona smoke...nt even a puff.. yup.. i wan to change over.. really change over.. nah.. this dun mean i used to smoke.. duhz.. i'm so guai.. wahhaaa.. i guess dat abt it le bah.. just haf a early bday wish.. i hope she can spend it with me... yup.. though it seems impossible.. hai.. nvm bah.. i guess i will sign off then.. till then.. rock on...